it's so ironic that NO ONE reads this when EVERYONE wanted me to start one.  oh well.  perhaps mister sanyo will just continue to read to make fun of me.  well, went to amoeba with chris, (maxx never took me!)  and got morrissey cds!  woo hoo.  inspiring words in the "southpaw grammer".

"there's too many people

planning your downfall

when your spirit's on trial

these nights can be frightening

sleep transports sadness

to some other mid-brain

but somebody here

will not be here next year

so stand by the board

full of fear and intention

if you think that they're listening

well you've got to be joking

oh you understand change

and you think it's essential

but when your profession

is humiliation"

Currently Reading Beloved By TONI MORRISON see related

current ponderings:  the extent of feelings of which one is capable and their range is amazing.  how one can hate and love at the same time.  two extremes within one.

desire versus necesity. 

moment of the day:  seeing a mailman jaywalking and listening to that song from the 90s that goes "DANGER!"  don't know why i found those things funny but i did.  comic relief i suppose?

my song:

"asleep" by the smiths

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bed

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore


Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore


Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go


There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well ...


Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye ...